She's Moving!

So our little one has started crawling! And she looks so cute slowly bringing each knee forward and then slowly moving her hands. I know before long she will be everywhere and into everything so I am enjoying this while I can. She's such a little doll. Right now she has upper resp. infection and all shes been doing is sleeping. For 5 days she was running a fever but that seems to have stopped. Shes on the mend and doing better every day. Her 2 bottom teeth have come through, one after the other. At the doctors last week she weighed 14 lbs 4 oz and is 25 inches long. So she is still a little peanut, but has a chunky little face :).

I am registered for classes and will start in the fall. I am really excited and cannot wait to start.

Where To Go From Here..

I seem to be at a standstill here at my blog. I know its the same old same old, new baby and no new posts. I work Monday thru Friday 6am to 6pm. On Saturdays we go to gym.boree and now that's its nicer outside spending time doing things outside. On Sunday we go to church. After that I am just so tired that I just don't have the energy to come on. And then I feel bad because here it is almost a month since my last post. I'm going to try and post more often but I am not making any promises. lol.

Oh and as if I don't have enough on my plate I am going to start going back to school in the fall. I love to take pictures, particularly studio pictures. So I am going to go for an associates for art to start out and then go from there. My goal is to start my own studio one day.

As for Aydan. She is getting so big. She is 13 lbs 9.5 oz and 25 inches long. She has been rolling over for 2 weeks now and just now starting to sit by herself. If she leans to the side she will fall over but she is getting there. We have not had a bad uncontrollable crying jag in 3 weeks now and it has been just pure bliss. She is so happy and smiles so much, she just melts out hearts. She still wakes up once in the night for a bottle but she eats it and then goes right back to sleep.

She has been eating food for a couple of months now and now we are introducing her to meats and chunkier foods. She has gagged a couple of times but she is learning to mash it up with her gums. No teeth yet and we are not sure when she will get one. We don't see any that are coming up at this time.

She has so much hair and I love putting it up with bows. Teressa is not totally fond of them but since she can't do hair and I can, she lets me do what I want. lol. Starting at the end of the month on Monday mornings we will be taking a mommy and me swim class. Aydan loves the water and I want her to continue to love it.

I think this is all for now and here are some pictures

My 1st St. Patricks Day

Going swimming at the Y

Swinging for the 1st time

Coloring eggs

I love Pickles!!!

My Internet Is Back!!!

My internet was gone for almost a month and i felt so lost not being able to post and to read everyone's blog. Everything around here is doing great. Aydan is getting so big. Her uncontrollable crying are just about nonexistent now and she just smiles and "talks" so much now. She has started day care because the person who watched her Tuesday and Thursday could not watch her anymore. And because I work at the day care and I get help to pay the tuition, its cheaper for her it be in full time then part time. So Teressa will keep her home on some Wednesday or Friday but she shes with me the rest of the time. Its great having her with me I have got to say. Shes in my classroom so its not like she is even in daycare lol. This is all Ive got time for right this minute, Ill update more tomorrow and with pics .

This Months Weigh In

So for the month of January I lost 9.2 lbs! Not bad at all. Im very pleased with what I lost. This was just with eating better. Because of me and Aydan getting sick I never got a chance to work out but that will change this month. I will either go M,W,F or T,TH and Sat. to my local YM.CA. I like to work on the elliptical machine and also swim. So that is my plan starting this week.

As for little Aydan we have had to do something I didn't really want to do. Every night we play what we call the pacifier game. We put it in she goes to sleep, she spits it out and wakes up, and we put it back in again, and again, and again. It was starting to get ridicules waking up 10 to 15 times a night to put it back in her mouth. So this weekend we put her in her crib gave her the pacifier and walked out of our room. Within 20 minutes she was crying for the pacifier, but we let her cry. She cried for thirty minutes and out hearts were breaking but we stuck to it. We soothed her a couple of times but did not give her back the pacifier. After 30 minutes she was out. She only woke up twice for a bottle and a diaper change and then went right back to sleep with no problem. The next night she cried for 10 minutes and went to sleep and slept for 7 hours straight. Last night was the same, she only woke up once ate and went right back down. So though I did not want to do the whole C.I.O. I think that it has been for the best. Because going the way we were going was going to drive us up the wall.

As far as how she has been doing crying in the day, Day by day it gets alittle better. Some days are worse then others but Me and Teressa have seen some improvement from the beginning of the month and now. So we are just keeping our fingers crossed and hoping it continues. Definitely seeing a small light at the end of the tunnel.

And just because you lasted this long here is a pic of Aydan.(excuse the mess in the back lol)

4 Months Old

Oh my gosh, I can't believe that she is almost 4 months old now. She is getting so big and doing so much now. She was 6 lbs 7 oz at birth and now is 10 lbs 13 oz. It's not as much as the doctor would like her to gain but the dr is also not that worried. She is growing and looks very healthy so. She is also 23 inches long now. We started her on cereal and she is loving it. She just gobbled up all of the 2 tablespoons we made for her today. We also had a great day today. Barley and uncontrollable crying. She was a very happy baby today. And she also slept through most of the night. Only woke up at 5 am for a diaper change and a bottle then right back to sleep.
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On another happy note. We got to see R for the first time in 7 months. It was so good to see him. We haven't seen him because his grandmother was not letting us and we were not sure why. But that seems to have passed and we were able to get him and we will get him again in 2 weeks. We took him to the Lo.wes building workshop for kids and then we took him bowling. He had a blast and he absolutely loves Aydan. We are very happy about that. We thought he might be a little jealous but her didn't seem to be.

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On the weight loss front, I weigh tomorrow to see how much I have lost this last week and then Our finale weigh in is next Tuesday. I'm hoping that I won the pot because I could really use the hundred dollars but even if I don't, I'm losing weight and that all that matters.

look at me doing tummy time

"I like that baby baby in the mirror."

Weight Loss

Well in almost 2 weeks I have lost almost 5 pounds. I'm very happy with this start. I am about the same as last time. 2.5 pounds a week. Hoping it stays on the same trend this time.

In the home news, little Aydan had R.S.V. She is on breathing treatments every 4 hrs until her chest clears up. Let me tell you, she hates them! She screams the entire time and tried to push the mask away. My poor baby. I feel so bad for her. Here is a picture of the one time she fell asleep during one. The doctor said it could take weeks maybe 2 months for it to clear all the way up.

She's doing a little bit better every day on the crying front. Some days are definitely worse then others. Of course the last week has been bad, but she has been sick so. And just to give yall an extra treat here is a pic of her in her first skirt outfit with tights. They were a little big but she just looked so cute in them!

Sickness

We knew it was inevitable but we have fallen sick. I have bronchitis and we are not sure what Aydan has. We will be taking her to the doctors today. She was coughing yesterday and now she is so hoarse. I feel so bad when she cries because she sounds so terrible. Hopefully she will get well soon.

Thank you for your kind words and support. The doctors think she has a case of colic. Shes getting a little better everyday and they think she might be starting to outgrow it. The only thing that seems to pacify her for any length of time it to be right up against you and your moving around. So we have been doing alot of baby wearing.

Also as a new year has started, so has hopefully a new me. Two years ago before we got pregnant with Shain, I went on a diet to lose weight. I lost almost 50 pounds in 7 months. When I got pregnant with him I gained 20 pounds in 16 weeks. Most of this came from being on bed rest almost the entire time and I could not exercise. After we lost him I gained 15 pounds. When we got pregnant again I gained a total of 16 pounds. Since having her I have added another 10. So I am not quite happy with my weight and its time to start to loose it. My goal is 50 by the end of summer.

Aydan wants to tell yall "Happy New Year"

An Update On Whats Been Going On

I have not forgotten you blogging world. I have not been in a very good spot the last few months and I did not want to put out all that negativity to you who read this. I didn't want to come off as ungrateful for my little one or anything like that. I love her so much but it has been a very rough 2 months. She smiles now but they are very far and few. When she is not happy and smiling she is crying. Non stop. And though she is doing better the last few days sometimes I feel as though I am not doing a good job of being a mother. That I am not doing something right. My honey tells me that I am and that this will pass and she will be much happier but i just don't see it yet. The light is too small at the end of the tunnel. But in my heart I know it will get better. So I am still here and I am keeping up with all of you. I will leave with some pictures of little Aydan.

A smiling Aydan at Christmas

Sleeping

Question 1

So 2 moms with a plan asked what was the best and worst thing about being a mother.

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I'll start with the worst first for me. I hate when she cries and nothing soothes her. When she cries and cries and nothing I do helps. It makes me feel like a terrible mother. That I am not doing something right. I know that this is ridicules to feel this way but it doesn't stop me. Luckily these long crying bouts are getting shorter and father between. And she is smiling a little now so that makes it better too.

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Teressa also thinks that this is the worst thing too. And I'm sure as she gets old it will continue to be the same. Things like thinking and I a good enough mother?, Am I providing the best life I can give her? and so on.

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The best thing for both of us is just having her, being privileged enough to be her mother. Knowing she is mine to have and hold and love. For a while I never thought I would get here. I was reaching the age I was told not to pass to have children. And then I got pregnant and then I lost him. So for me just having her is the best thing in the world. To one day in the future having her say mama, and I love you. For her to grasp my finger in her hand and smile at me. It just melts my heart. To look at me with her big eyes and just trust me.

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Here is one picture, the rest have to wait till I can edit some of them.

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No Takers?

No takers on my free for all question answering? Oh come on, I know there has got to be something someone wants to know. I get my pictures tomorrow so I should be able to post them up tomorrow or Wednesday. My boss said that they turned out really good. Other then that now much else but working and working and then spending time with my baby. I can't believe she is already 7 weeks old. Shes almost 3 months how crazy is that. Which means in about 2 weeks Ill do another set of pics here at my house. I'm' trying to learn to take better pictures. We shall see if she cooperates for us.