Our little family

Introducing Georgia

2011-07-09T09:55:00.007-05:00

Holding Mama's Hand

One Day Old

I love my binky just like my sissy

Under my lights

Mommy said I looked like a Movie Star

Not so red after my light therapy

I got my PICC line in today

She's Here!

2011-07-04T08:34:00.001-05:00

Our little Georgia decided she could not wait any longer. She made her appearance July 1, 2011 at 27 weeks and 2 days. She weighed 2 lbs and almost half an once. She was 13 1/2 inches long. She is doing really good right now. Breathing on her own. Maintaining her body temperature. They started giving her my pumped breastmilk alot sooner then they thought they were going to. But because she is doing so well they decided to start trying her, and so far she has been tolerating the feeds very well! I will update more later.

June: Black

2011-07-01T13:41:00.001-05:00

So I had some really good pictures this month but now cannot post them. :( I love seeing everyone else's pictures though.

27 Weeks!

2011-06-29T07:21:00.001-05:00

We have made it to 27 weeks! Baby is doing great right now. We had an ultrasound yesterday and she's weighing about 2 lbs right now. Hopefully I'll be able to keep her in for the next 7 weeks, which is the longest they will let me go. Because of the low fluid I do not feel her move very much. Maybe only 2 to 3 times a day. But the doctors say that this is normal. They just keep checking on the monitors that everything is fine.

no change

2011-06-26T07:21:00.001-05:00

Well I've made it 2 days and no changes. I have had a course of magnesium to help with brain development. 2 shots of steroids to improve the lungs. And have 5 more days of antibiotics to ward off infection. I don't feel her move very much but the doctors said once the steroids go through my system she should become more active. I guess it makes them very sleepy. Our goal is just to take it day by day, week by week.

my water has broken

2011-06-25T08:15:00.001-05:00

Sorry for the crappy i.phone update. As of yesterday my water broke. I am now in the hospital till the baby comes. I am 26 weeks right now and the longest they will let me go if she stays in is 34 weeks. So best case scenario is she will stay in and I'll be in tue hospital for 8 weeks. No matter when she comes she will have to go to the NI.CU. The longer she stays put the shorter her stay will be in there. Me and Teressa are keeping very positive outlooks. The hardest part of all this is not being with our Aydan. She is staying at grandma and grandpa's house and last night did really good. We will not get to see her every day because the hospital is so far from home. Without traffic it is an 1:30 hr drive and with traffic can take 3 hrs one way. I will update more later.

Yellow

2011-05-30T20:50:00.003-05:00

I know i havent done any other month's colors but I thought I would give it a go this month.

Aydan's Medical Issues

2011-05-29T14:52:00.002-05:00

So alot has been going on with our little Aydan lately. Since she was about 9 months old she has had constant diarrhea. We are talking about 6-10 a day on average. The doctor kept putting her on different things to see if it would stop. It never did. When she turned one she started breaking out in hives almost daily. We were giving her ben.adral every night. At this point we insisted on an allergy test because we were pretty sure she was allergic to something. Sure enough the results came back to milk. Let me add that Aydan is a very picky eater but the food she loved eating was dairy. We have tried substituting her favorites with a soy product but she just doesn't like them very much..Once we found this out the doctor wanted to keep an eye on her diarrhea to see if it improved on the new non dairy diet. After about 2 months it became apparent that it was not getting better at all. Also our picky eater child had now turned into a child that did not eat. She was drinking all day but would not eat hardly anything. The doctor told us to withhold all drink and snack to see if she would eat. She went almost 3 days with just picking at her food till I broke down and gave her something to drink. Obviously withholding was not making her eat.

We then took her to a GI specialist to see what they said. They ran a bunch of test that all came back fine and decided that she had diarrhea so bad because she did not eat and just drank. They also ran a diabetes test just to be sure and that was also negative. The GI specialist put her on a stick diet. She is to drink a supplement drink 3 times a day. No soy milk or any other liquid at all. Except for water between meals. She is to be offered 3 meals a day but after 30 minutes if she is not eating it then it is to be taken away and her shake then given to her. She is not allowed anything else till her next meal.

They put her on this stick diet mainly because they labeled her as failure to thrive. Because she is not getting the nutrients she needs every day she is not growing. She has been at the exact same height and weight now for 5 months.

So far she is drinking 2 shakes a day, occasionally 3. She eats breakfast most mornings but does not really touch lunch and dinner. She has another appointment in July to see if maybe it might be something on how she eats, in her throat or swallowing. I maybe it is hurting her and that why she is not eating. We also have a early intervention specialist coming to see if maybe it might be a texture issue. .If you got this far sorry so long but I had to get it off my chest. So much has been going on and sometime I wish I could just pick her up and get her to eat.

Movement

2011-05-27T15:51:00.001-05:00

So yesterday I spoke too soon. This morning while lying in bed, I felt the first little flutters. I love feeling them. This was one of my most favorite times when I was pregnant with Aydan. And to be able to experience it all over again, I have no words for it.

18 Weeks To Go

2011-05-26T18:58:00.001-05:00

Just a quick post from my I.phone. I cannot believe that we only have 18 weeks to go! It is so crazy. I have not felt little J move yet but I'm guessing any day now I will. Luckily I go to the doctors every 2 weeks so I get to hear the heartbeat often. I hope everyone is doing great!

It's A.....

2011-05-14T07:50:00.007-05:00

GIRL!!!

We are so excited!!!

Do not have alot of time to post today but will try and come back later.

And because she is so stinking cute here are some pictures Aydan.

My Whirlwind Four Weeks

2011-03-19T08:08:00.005-05:00

Oh my let me tell you that the last 4 weeks have been insane. I have seen 4 different doctors, been the to emergency room twice, and been let go of my current OB to find another one. I guess I will start with the whole OB thing first. After my first appointment with my OB they had me make an appointment at a hospital and hour away in Evenston to see a high risk doctor. We went there and had a great consultation with the doctor. She went over my whole history with both pregnancies and concluded though I was on insulin for Aydan everything was very under control and I should not need to go there for this pregnancy. I should be able to stay with my currant OB. This news was very exciting because in order for me to go to my appointments last time I ended up having to take off the whole day from work because they are more like a clinic and you wait for hours till they call you back. And I also did not work once I went to twice weekly visits because my work would not work around my appointments. So not having to go there would have been great. I went back to my OB 2 weeks later for my monthly appointment and was told by my doctor he would not see me anymore. He didn't care what Evenston said he did not want to care for me since I will eventually be high risk. I left the office that day very upset. I made the call to Eventson to transfer there and was told because I was not high risk yet they could not take me. I was completely lost on what to do. My doctor wont take me and the hospital he told me to go to wont take me. Where was I supposed to go?

I called OB after OB and was told the same thing. Since I will be high risk they would not take me. I called over 50 OB and spent over 4 hrs on the phone. To make matters worse I started bleeding that night. I had no OB to call and had to go to the emergency room. They did nothing but tell me to see an OB and take it easy. They gave me a referral number, one of which I had called the day before and was told they would not take me, and I called it telling them I had a referral from the emergency room. Lo and behold they said they would take me after all. Its amazing what a little piece of paper can do. I mad an appointment for the next week to see them. But before I made it to that appointment I started bleeding more and having cramping. So back to the emergency room I went.

I hated this visit. I had to go alone because we could not get anyone to watch Aydan and so Teressa had to stay home. I went in and sat for hours in a room. When the PA finally came in she checked me out and told me that I was dilated and placental tissue was sticking out and would miscarriage in the next 24 hours. Here I was almost 10 weeks. I was upset to say the least. I called Teressa and told her what they said and of course she was very upset as well. I waited for another couple of hours and they decided to do an ultrasound. Everything looked great! The baby was great, heartbeat was great, cervix on the inside was great. Nothing looked amiss. I felt better but still did not understand what exactly was going on. I was then sent home with no other explanation.

I went to the new OB appointment and was looked over. The dilation the emergency room saw was not dilation or placental tissue. I have a polyp on my cervix. Right smack dab in the middle. It is causing the bleeding and we will just have to watch it very closely. The baby is doing great and I got to hear its little heartbeat! Its very strong and music to my ears!

I have other information but that is a whole other issue and I will write about that later. As for right now I am doing good and the baby is doing good so that is all that really matters in the end. As for everyone else I hope your last month was a lot better then mine.

8w4d and a picture

2011-02-20T21:01:00.004-06:00

I feel so terrible. I promised a picture of the little sprocket and did not deliver. In my defense I have been very sick as well as the whole house. Teressa got the stomach flu then Aydan got it and then I did. It was a very bad almost 2 weeks. Aydan went through almost a whole pack of diapers and by far had it the worst out of all of us. We did have an ultrasound on Monday and everything looked great. We did not get a great picture but the little one is measuring great and had an excellent heartbeat of 158. We were a little disappointed we did not see two in their though a little relieved at the same time. As promised here is a picture of little Sprocket.

7 Weeks

2011-02-13T23:26:00.003-06:00

I cant believe that 7 weeks has gone by already. We get to have our first ultrasound on Valentines Day! I take this as a good sign. We cant wait to get our picture of our little bean. Everything has been a little crazy around here since we found out we were pregnant. Our little Aydan is allergic to Milk. Unfortunately dairy is about 3/4 of the things she does eat. She is a very picky eater and does not eat much. As such she is almost 17 months and only weighs 20 pounds. I have to call a nutritionist to make an appointment for her. I am still going to school this semester so I am still very busy at doing my work as well as working full time. I have been having a lot of issues at work lately and though I hate to do it, I am currently looking for a new job. I have bent over backwards for my job and they continue to screw me over. I am done being treated like this and need a happier and less stressful place to be.

In pregnancy news. In my other pregnancies I never had morning sickness. I got spoiled I have to admit. With this one I have been nauseous every night and on several occasions I have thrown up. I hate to do this and just the act of throwing up will make me do it several more times. I cannot eat dinner most nights at all and it make me supper hungry in the morning. I have no problems throughout the morning or afternoon but as soon as 5ish hits that's it. I take this as a sign that the baby is growing very well. I have also not had any Spotting! I am so happy about this I cannot express how much. In the last pregnancies by week 5 I was spotting very heavily and was told several times that I was probably going to loss the baby. So far on this one nothing! I will however feel much better once I see its little heartbeat tomorrow.

The Results Are In

2011-01-19T22:17:00.003-06:00

Well my TWW is over and I broke down and tested this morning. We have a BFP!!!!! I'm a little shocked right now because i really wasn't feeling it this month but I guess I was wrong. The only sign of anything was I am completely exhausted. I felt like i have not slept in weeks. I was thinks it was because I have been so super busy this month but now we know otherwise. I will post a picture later after a different test because the one I took is very light and did not make a good picture.

TTC #2

2010-12-22T19:50:00.003-06:00

So we have decided to try for a second. Its something we've talked about back and forth for a while now but we feel now is a good time. We have actually been trying for 5 months now so for someone that it took the first time both times, I'm having a bit of a hard time. I got really lucky the last times and I'm seeing that now. Our next try will be on my birthday and maybe I'll get a wonderful belated birthday present in the form of a Bfp. Keep your fingers crossed for us. If by luck it does work this time, Aydan and the new little one will have very close birthdays. I was hoping to avoid this but I don't want to not try this month because then I will feel like this could have been the month if you understand what I mean.

(hopefully this cute little face will get to be a Big sister)

Happy Thanksgiving!

2010-11-25T07:43:00.004-06:00

I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! We will be heading to Teressa's family's house later today. I am curious to see what Aydan eats because lately she has become the pickiest eater and wont eat much of anything.

Speaking of Aydan, she is getting to be such the little toddler. She is 14 months now. Shes trying to run but is not very good at it yet. She falls down when she tries but she thinks its hilarious! She has a few words that she says but not very many.

Mama (finally. she just said this the other day!)
Itty (Kitty)
Ge (For Doggie)

We cant believe how big she is getting! Shes still a little peanut and is only in the 7th percentile for height and weight. She can still wear a few 9 months cloths but is mostly in 9-12 months. The straight 12 months are a little big on her.

Aydan last year at Thanksgiving

Aydan just a month ago

She's Turning One!!!

2010-09-18T22:15:00.002-05:00

I have been so bad on posting and I feel terrible. I have a new shift at work now and basically work from 6am to 6pm with a 4 hr break in the middle. And because we moved farther away from my work I stay there and wait to clock back in. Its not fun and I am currently looking for a closer place to work at. I love the kids where I am at but I feel like they just use me because they know I will do it cause I need the job.

But into my little bit. Shes not so little anymore. In a few short days she will be turning one and I can't believe it! We has her birthday party today and she had so much fun. She loved her cake and smashed it to bits and loved her gifts. She did not want to rip open anything and Me and her Mama had to help her. She got a bunch of clothes and some toys. As well as some art supplies so Mama can do art with her during the day while I am at work.

Aydan now has 8 teeth, 4 on the bottom and 4 up top. She is almost walking full time now and is supper fast. She is getting so big so fast and I just want to slow it down lol.

Its been busy around here these last few months. I started going back to school. So when I'm not at work or studying of being with my Aydan I am usually sleeping lol. I will post pics up this weekend sometime I promise.

And We Moved!

2010-06-19T22:19:00.009-05:00

So At the beginning of May we moved to our own place. I don't know if yall remember or not but we had been living with Teressa's parents to help them out. Both of them are disabled and needed help doing most of the everyday things like cleaning, shopping, doing laundry and most of all the yard work. Back in August right before little Aydan came, Teressa's brother(R) and his wife and their three kids moved in. R had lost his job in the state they were living in and had nowhere to go. It was supposed to be temporary, only a couple of months. Well as of May they were still there.

Two of the kids were sleeping in the nursery that Aydan never got to use and she was in our very cramped room. So we discussed things with mom and dad and R and wife. We decided since R still could not find a job the best thing for everyone would be for them to stay and us to move out. They could live there and help out around the house instead of rent till they got jobs.

And we found a great little apartment, its three bedrooms so R(the little guy we take sometimes) has his own room when he comes to stay the night. Here are some pics of the place. We want to paint still and we have a ton of pictures to put up still but that will come with time lol. I don't have pictures of the kitchen, and our room. We love it, and most important of all Aydan loves it.

The living room

The dining room

Aydan's room

R's room

The bathroom

Aydan is doing great. Getting bigger and bigger everyday. She crawls super fast now and pulls herself up on everything. Nothing is safe any more lol. She has now cut 2 bottom teeth and is eating almost all table foods. She is a very picky eater though we try very hard to get her to eat different things. We go on Wednesday for her 9 month check up. 9 months, I just can't believe it. She is so different from the little helpless one we brought home from the hospital. Shes full of attitude and sassyness. We both believe she has put on weight in these last 3 months. From when she was born and up until she was 6 months she was only in the 5th percentile. Her height was in the 10th but when she was 6 months it had dropped to the 5th as well. I'm guessing she will be 26 inches and 17 pounds. I will post more pictures of her tomorrow.

She's Moving!

2010-05-16T18:31:00.004-05:00

So our little one has started crawling! And she looks so cute slowly bringing each knee forward and then slowly moving her hands. I know before long she will be everywhere and into everything so I am enjoying this while I can. She's such a little doll. Right now she has upper resp. infection and all shes been doing is sleeping. For 5 days she was running a fever but that seems to have stopped. Shes on the mend and doing better every day. Her 2 bottom teeth have come through, one after the other. At the doctors last week she weighed 14 lbs 4 oz and is 25 inches long. So she is still a little peanut, but has a chunky little face :).

I am registered for classes and will start in the fall. I am really excited and cannot wait to start.

Where To Go From Here..

2010-04-03T16:17:00.008-05:00

I seem to be at a standstill here at my blog. I know its the same old same old, new baby and no new posts. I work Monday thru Friday 6am to 6pm. On Saturdays we go to gym.boree and now that's its nicer outside spending time doing things outside. On Sunday we go to church. After that I am just so tired that I just don't have the energy to come on. And then I feel bad because here it is almost a month since my last post. I'm going to try and post more often but I am not making any promises. lol.

Oh and as if I don't have enough on my plate I am going to start going back to school in the fall. I love to take pictures, particularly studio pictures. So I am going to go for an associates for art to start out and then go from there. My goal is to start my own studio one day.

As for Aydan. She is getting so big. She is 13 lbs 9.5 oz and 25 inches long. She has been rolling over for 2 weeks now and just now starting to sit by herself. If she leans to the side she will fall over but she is getting there. We have not had a bad uncontrollable crying jag in 3 weeks now and it has been just pure bliss. She is so happy and smiles so much, she just melts out hearts. She still wakes up once in the night for a bottle but she eats it and then goes right back to sleep.

She has been eating food for a couple of months now and now we are introducing her to meats and chunkier foods. She has gagged a couple of times but she is learning to mash it up with her gums. No teeth yet and we are not sure when she will get one. We don't see any that are coming up at this time.

She has so much hair and I love putting it up with bows. Teressa is not totally fond of them but since she can't do hair and I can, she lets me do what I want. lol. Starting at the end of the month on Monday mornings we will be taking a mommy and me swim class. Aydan loves the water and I want her to continue to love it.

I think this is all for now and here are some pictures

My 1st St. Patricks Day

Going swimming at the Y

Swinging for the 1st time

Coloring eggs

I love Pickles!!!

My Internet Is Back!!!

2010-03-10T18:20:00.002-06:00

My internet was gone for almost a month and i felt so lost not being able to post and to read everyone's blog. Everything around here is doing great. Aydan is getting so big. Her uncontrollable crying are just about nonexistent now and she just smiles and "talks" so much now. She has started day care because the person who watched her Tuesday and Thursday could not watch her anymore. And because I work at the day care and I get help to pay the tuition, its cheaper for her it be in full time then part time. So Teressa will keep her home on some Wednesday or Friday but she shes with me the rest of the time. Its great having her with me I have got to say. Shes in my classroom so its not like she is even in daycare lol. This is all Ive got time for right this minute, Ill update more tomorrow and with pics .

This Months Weigh In

2010-02-02T09:39:00.004-06:00

So for the month of January I lost 9.2 lbs! Not bad at all. Im very pleased with what I lost. This was just with eating better. Because of me and Aydan getting sick I never got a chance to work out but that will change this month. I will either go M,W,F or T,TH and Sat. to my local YM.CA. I like to work on the elliptical machine and also swim. So that is my plan starting this week.

As for little Aydan we have had to do something I didn't really want to do. Every night we play what we call the pacifier game. We put it in she goes to sleep, she spits it out and wakes up, and we put it back in again, and again, and again. It was starting to get ridicules waking up 10 to 15 times a night to put it back in her mouth. So this weekend we put her in her crib gave her the pacifier and walked out of our room. Within 20 minutes she was crying for the pacifier, but we let her cry. She cried for thirty minutes and out hearts were breaking but we stuck to it. We soothed her a couple of times but did not give her back the pacifier. After 30 minutes she was out. She only woke up twice for a bottle and a diaper change and then went right back to sleep with no problem. The next night she cried for 10 minutes and went to sleep and slept for 7 hours straight. Last night was the same, she only woke up once ate and went right back down. So though I did not want to do the whole C.I.O. I think that it has been for the best. Because going the way we were going was going to drive us up the wall.

As far as how she has been doing crying in the day, Day by day it gets alittle better. Some days are worse then others but Me and Teressa have seen some improvement from the beginning of the month and now. So we are just keeping our fingers crossed and hoping it continues. Definitely seeing a small light at the end of the tunnel.

And just because you lasted this long here is a pic of Aydan.(excuse the mess in the back lol)

4 Months Old

2010-01-25T19:54:00.006-06:00

Oh my gosh, I can't believe that she is almost 4 months old now. She is getting so big and doing so much now. She was 6 lbs 7 oz at birth and now is 10 lbs 13 oz. It's not as much as the doctor would like her to gain but the dr is also not that worried. She is growing and looks very healthy so. She is also 23 inches long now. We started her on cereal and she is loving it. She just gobbled up all of the 2 tablespoons we made for her today. We also had a great day today. Barley and uncontrollable crying. She was a very happy baby today. And she also slept through most of the night. Only woke up at 5 am for a diaper change and a bottle then right back to sleep.
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On another happy note. We got to see R for the first time in 7 months. It was so good to see him. We haven't seen him because his grandmother was not letting us and we were not sure why. But that seems to have passed and we were able to get him and we will get him again in 2 weeks. We took him to the Lo.wes building workshop for kids and then we took him bowling. He had a blast and he absolutely loves Aydan. We are very happy about that. We thought he might be a little jealous but her didn't seem to be.

On the weight loss front, I weigh tomorrow to see how much I have lost this last week and then Our finale weigh in is next Tuesday. I'm hoping that I won the pot because I could really use the hundred dollars but even if I don't, I'm losing weight and that all that matters.

look at me doing tummy time

"I like that baby baby in the mirror."

Weight Loss

2010-01-18T21:40:00.004-06:00

Well in almost 2 weeks I have lost almost 5 pounds. I'm very happy with this start. I am about the same as last time. 2.5 pounds a week. Hoping it stays on the same trend this time.

In the home news, little Aydan had R.S.V. She is on breathing treatments every 4 hrs until her chest clears up. Let me tell you, she hates them! She screams the entire time and tried to push the mask away. My poor baby. I feel so bad for her. Here is a picture of the one time she fell asleep during one. The doctor said it could take weeks maybe 2 months for it to clear all the way up.

She's doing a little bit better every day on the crying front. Some days are definitely worse then others. Of course the last week has been bad, but she has been sick so. And just to give yall an extra treat here is a pic of her in her first skirt outfit with tights. They were a little big but she just looked so cute in them!

Sickness

2010-01-12T08:30:00.003-06:00

We knew it was inevitable but we have fallen sick. I have bronchitis and we are not sure what Aydan has. We will be taking her to the doctors today. She was coughing yesterday and now she is so hoarse. I feel so bad when she cries because she sounds so terrible. Hopefully she will get well soon.

Thank you for your kind words and support. The doctors think she has a case of colic. Shes getting a little better everyday and they think she might be starting to outgrow it. The only thing that seems to pacify her for any length of time it to be right up against you and your moving around. So we have been doing alot of baby wearing.

Also as a new year has started, so has hopefully a new me. Two years ago before we got pregnant with Shain, I went on a diet to lose weight. I lost almost 50 pounds in 7 months. When I got pregnant with him I gained 20 pounds in 16 weeks. Most of this came from being on bed rest almost the entire time and I could not exercise. After we lost him I gained 15 pounds. When we got pregnant again I gained a total of 16 pounds. Since having her I have added another 10. So I am not quite happy with my weight and its time to start to loose it. My goal is 50 by the end of summer.

Aydan wants to tell yall "Happy New Year"

An Update On Whats Been Going On

2010-01-09T19:11:00.004-06:00

I have not forgotten you blogging world. I have not been in a very good spot the last few months and I did not want to put out all that negativity to you who read this. I didn't want to come off as ungrateful for my little one or anything like that. I love her so much but it has been a very rough 2 months. She smiles now but they are very far and few. When she is not happy and smiling she is crying. Non stop. And though she is doing better the last few days sometimes I feel as though I am not doing a good job of being a mother. That I am not doing something right. My honey tells me that I am and that this will pass and she will be much happier but i just don't see it yet. The light is too small at the end of the tunnel. But in my heart I know it will get better. So I am still here and I am keeping up with all of you. I will leave with some pictures of little Aydan.

A smiling Aydan at Christmas

Sleeping

Question 1

2009-11-10T20:37:00.004-06:00

So 2 moms with a plan asked what was the best and worst thing about being a mother.

I'll start with the worst first for me. I hate when she cries and nothing soothes her. When she cries and cries and nothing I do helps. It makes me feel like a terrible mother. That I am not doing something right. I know that this is ridicules to feel this way but it doesn't stop me. Luckily these long crying bouts are getting shorter and father between. And she is smiling a little now so that makes it better too.

Teressa also thinks that this is the worst thing too. And I'm sure as she gets old it will continue to be the same. Things like thinking and I a good enough mother?, Am I providing the best life I can give her? and so on.

The best thing for both of us is just having her, being privileged enough to be her mother. Knowing she is mine to have and hold and love. For a while I never thought I would get here. I was reaching the age I was told not to pass to have children. And then I got pregnant and then I lost him. So for me just having her is the best thing in the world. To one day in the future having her say mama, and I love you. For her to grasp my finger in her hand and smile at me. It just melts my heart. To look at me with her big eyes and just trust me.

Here is one picture, the rest have to wait till I can edit some of them.

No Takers?

2009-11-09T22:16:00.002-06:00

No takers on my free for all question answering? Oh come on, I know there has got to be something someone wants to know. I get my pictures tomorrow so I should be able to post them up tomorrow or Wednesday. My boss said that they turned out really good. Other then that now much else but working and working and then spending time with my baby. I can't believe she is already 7 weeks old. Shes almost 3 months how crazy is that. Which means in about 2 weeks Ill do another set of pics here at my house. I'm' trying to learn to take better pictures. We shall see if she cooperates for us.

Sunday

2009-11-08T21:19:00.002-06:00

Today we were so busy and now I'm exhausted. We went to church this morning and then had to run a whole bunch of errands. We are just now getting home. I really dont know if I'll be able to keep up this posting everyday thing. There are just not enough hours in the day. I hope everyone had a good weekend.

Smiles

2009-11-07T20:47:00.002-06:00

So the last couple of days our little one has started to smile at us. Not very often but they are definitely smiles. Every time she gives me one my heart melts. I love it. I can spend hours just watching her. Her eyes are starting to focus more on us now and she just looks and looks. You can tell she is actually looking at you and not through you. Everyday I just marvel that I have her.

We did get some pictures done with her dress but I wont have them til Monday or Tuesday to put them up. She did very good and we were able to get a good 20 minutes without her paci but for the rest 30 mins she has it in her mouth. I think some of them will come out very good.

I'm putting this out there to everyone. Sometimes I don't have much to say so in order to get through posting everyday I would like to answer questions from ya'll. I did this way back in January during a tww and there were some really good questions. SO whatever you got, give it to me. I'm pretty open and will talk about most everything.

And just because I can, here is anouther pic of little Aydan

Not Much

2009-11-06T19:13:00.002-06:00

Sorry not much going on over here. Sick baby and a sick mommy. Nothing serious but we both have a slight head cold. We are going to try and get pictures of her in her christening outfit for her christening/blessing ceremony at out church next month. We'll see if she feels up to it. I can tell I'm back at work at the day care because for the last 4 months I have not been sick. Now I go back and a week after I'm sick.

At work we have gotten our first case of N1.H1. WE had to totally disinfect our entire center with bleach water. Normally we bleach before we go home. But toys that were not played with we did not have to. Today everything was done. Hopefully we have no more cases but I think we will this season.

Fall Pictures Take Two

2009-11-05T20:18:00.008-06:00

Here is the second take on her fall picts that i did. she was not very happy on this day but I did manage to get some cute pics in. sorry not a longer post. my sick little one did not sleep well last night.

Doctor's Visit

2009-11-04T18:10:00.003-06:00

Thanks Jilliebean for your great advice. We do own the book but we have not watched the dvd, i will have to look at the library. We put gas drops in all her bottles and we swaddle her because it is the only way she will sleep. We will just keep trying and doing different things, seeing what helps.

Tomorrow she goes for her first sick doctor's visit. She has been congested for the last 2 weeks and it's not getting any better. In fact she now sounds worse and shes not eating very well. We have had to give her pedi.lite the last couple of days because she just is not eating the formula. At least we are getting some fluids in her. I'm leaving this post with a picture of her in her costume again.

Colic

2009-11-03T18:38:00.003-06:00

We are not quite sure but we think she has it. Shes good at night, all swaddled. But during the day, if she is not eating or sleeping she is crying. In order for her to stop you have to be moving with her. Either in the bouncy chair or the rocker. Even just walking with her and bouncing her around makes her stop. Shes fine if you do these things. But it makes it hard to do anything because you can't put her down. Now that she has the swing we can put her in there for a little bit and do things we need to do. Does anyone know anything about colic or any advice? We even have her on a formula that is supposed to help it. At least she is not spitting up any more.

Back To Work

2009-11-02T19:02:00.003-06:00

So today I started back to work. I am very sad about it too. I hated leaving my baby and all I did was think about her all day long. When I came home for lunch she was sleeping so I didn't get to spend time with her. I just watched her while she slept. Her grandpa ordered her a swing and it came in today. Its all put together and she seems to like it ok. She was fine in it till her pacifier came out of her mouth. She loves that thing so much.

I was very lucky. I was able to go back to work and get 40 hours a week. When I talked to them a few weeks ago they were not sure I was going to even have 30. So I'm working 8:30 to 5:30 in the toddler room. I'm not with my babies but I like the tods.

I'm heading to bed. Not getting the best sleep plus working all day equals one tired mommy.

NaBloPoMo

2009-11-01T18:49:00.002-06:00

So i'm going to try this. Idon't know if it will work or not but I'm going to give it a go. We will see if im able to make it every day. Things have been alittle crazy around here and tomorrow will be a bigger post. We think we might have a little baby with a case of colic. I hope everyone had a great Halloween. I will leave today's post with a pic of our little pumpkin.

Fall Pic Photo Session 1

2009-10-26T20:29:00.011-05:00

I was going to have a friend of mine take some pics but her kids keep getting sick and her studio is in her house. So I took some myself but these are not all that I am going to do. She started getting upset so I will do more tomorrow. What do you think of my first attempt at this? The only thing I didn't like is having her diaper on but she wouldnt let me take it off lol.

It's The Weekend!!

2009-10-23T14:42:00.004-05:00

We are going to our annual retreat for church this weekend. We spend alot of time just being with the people in our church and relaxing. It will be much different then last years retreat. Last year we had just lost Shain 2 weeks before and this time we will be taking our almost 5 weeks old little one. It should be alot of fun. I know that Aydan will be held alot there because the woman just can't get enough of her! I hope everyone out there has a great weekend.

Oh here are some pics. I have a new photo editing software and this is what I have done so far on some of my pics. How are they? Let me know what you think.

Pics Galore and A Doctor's Visit

2009-10-21T14:36:00.012-05:00

(No takers on my little give-a-way huh. oh well. I tried)

So we took Aydan for her 1 month check-up. She has gained alittle over a pound since birth weighing in at 7 lbs 10.5 oz. She has also gotten 2 inches longer. Poor baby had to get a shot and screamed the entire time she was getting it. As soon as I picked her up she was fine though. As the title says here is a whole bunch of pictures the first ones are the prof pics I got taken at my work. The other ones are ones from our trip.

We're Back! And A Give-A-Way!

2009-10-16T20:10:00.009-05:00

We had a good time and yesterday was not as bad as I thought it would be. We didn't really do anything but we talked about him alot and cuddled with Aydan. It was a nice little getaway though we really didn't leave our place. We went to a waterpark one day because we had received free tickets. We had fun even though one of us had to sit out at any given time to be with peanut. We did take her into the kiddie pool and she kinda liked it. I think it was a little more chilly then what shes used to. Her bath waters are always warm. But she dd not scream or cry in it til after being in there for 15 mins. I think we might have a little water baby on our hands! Which is great because I love the water! Teressa and I spent every night in front of a nice warm fire. I wish we could have had more time. I think we really bonded as a family. Aydan has not been as fussy and last night she even slept for 7 hrs! I have pics at the end of our trip.

Now for the giveaway. As yall have read I had to stop breastfeeding. But I have some stuff that I had bought that I now cannot use. The first is an Amed@ purl.ey yours pump. It has been sterilized and is in great condition. I got it for free from someone who never used it and I only used it for 2 weeks. It has all the parts except for the 2 bottles to pump into. But any reg sized bottles will fit and if you use play.tex bottles I am also giving away the adapters for it. Here is the pump.

As above I am also giving away the play.tex one step storage kit. It comes with 2 adaptors that fit on most pumps and 12 sets for the drop in bags. You can pump right into them or into another container and then pour in the the bags. You then can screw the lid on and put them right in the freezer. Mine never made it into the freezer but only because I just never produced enough. Here is the pic of that.

And then I don't know if anyone wants them but I have a box of nursing pads. I did open the box but they are in a zip lock bag. I had bought a big box and barely used any.

Now if you would like any of this leave a comment with your email. If you do not want to leave your email then comment and then email me at megxta@yahoo.com. It will be a first come thing so be sure to comment. And last but not least here are some pics of our trip.

Chillin on the Couch

Our Cabin

Playing Cards

Swimming

(I will post more pics from the trip over this weekend)

One Year Ago

2009-10-10T10:21:00.003-05:00

I know she's not 3 weeks yet but we are only a few days away. She is just growing way to fast. I can't believe that she is almost 3 weeks already. And I am halfway through my maternity time. Teressa will be staying home with her and I love that. That they will get to bond and get to know each other so well. I am just going to miss her so much at work. Esp. since I work with little ones all day. I'm going to be taking care of them and wondering how my little one is doing. She has been really fussy the last week. Not quite sure why. She went from sleeping for 4 to 5 hour stints at night to 2 hr stints. And the day is not any better, she only sleeps for 2 hours at a time. Now last night was a little better because after every waking time she did go right back to sleep. But it does make for some very sleep deprived mommies. Other then the sleep though shes doing great. Shes up to eating 3 to 4 oz at each feeding every 4 hrs. She only has about 1 more days worth of breast milk left but she doesn't mind the formula. Though both me and Teressa can tell she like the breast milk best. She eats it much faster. oh can I say what a pain that was drying up. I hurt so bad and finally I said forget it and I pumped to relieve me a little and only got out 1 once. All that pain for nothing. But since I did that I have not hurt and it's been 3 days. So I think its pretty much gone now. Makes me feel really sad.

We gave Aydan her first real bath the other day. Her cord finally came off so she took a bath with me. She loves the water! She didn't like the sponge baths at all. I think she could have stayed in there forever. I have a pic of her after her bath.

We will be gone for a week. We are going away to remember Shain. On the 15th of last year we lost our little boy. We did not want to be home so we are going away. I am not quite sure how I will be on the 15th. I think having Aydan will help a lot but it will still be a very sad day. Oct. 15th also marks the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. So here is to all the people who have lost little ones. I know that little Shain is watching over Aydan and keeping her safe. I will post more when we get back.

2 Weeks

2009-10-05T14:35:00.006-05:00

Today marks 2 weeks since Aydan made her way into the world. She is getting bigger. Her face is starting to fill out more. She is doing great and is such a joy! We have had a couple of rough nights the last couple of nights. She wakes up and decides she she does not want to go back to sleep. We still have not had to switch her over to formula yet, I think we have at least 1 more week before we will. Tomorrow I am taking her by my work for the girls to see her. They are so excited to met her. I am also having her pic takin while I am there because the center is having pics taken of the kids. We bought a cute little dress and are hoping the pictures come out really cute. Here are a couple pics to leave you with.Sorry not longer, I'm really tired and am going to try to get in a nap. lol.

The Bar Is Closing

2009-10-02T11:57:00.002-05:00

Well I believe my breastfeeding is coming to an end. As much as I don't want it to. Little Aydan never latched on and every day I pump less and less. No matter how often I do it, nothing is boosting my supple. When my milk first came in I was pumping almost 6 oz every 3 to 4 hrs. Now here I am and every time I pump I am lucky if I get 1 1/2 oz. I am waking myself up even when she is sleeping to pump and at this point I am so exhausted its not even funny. I find myself getting frustrated and antsy when she is awake because I am so tired. And Teressa tries to tell me to go take a nap but I just can't seem to sleep when she is awake. I did consult a lactation consult again and still no luck. So I think the best thing for all of us is to close shop. Luckily I did produce alot when my milk first came in that I have about 1 weeks worth in the freezer. When that runs out we will be switching to formula.

On another note all together at the doctor's on Monday, She gained 2.5 oz in weight. So she is weighing 6 lbs 9.5 oz. The doctor said she looked great and no sign of jaundice. I have more pics but I haven't downloaded them yet. I promise to do that soon.

The First Week

2009-09-27T17:51:00.005-05:00

Tomorrow marks the first week of little Aydan's life. Can I just say that every day I feel so blessed. I have waited for this time it seems like forever. I know that we had it easy trying wise since it happened very quickly. But when I was eighteen I was told I could not have children. To me that was possibly the worst news. I come from a big family (12 siblings) and have always wanted one also. When I got older I was told that it would be ok to have kids but I need to do it before I turn 27. I have a bad liver and it gets a little worse every year. I turn 27 this year so I cut it really close. But lets get back to the little peanut.

She has been doing very good. The first 2 days in the hospital she slept the entire time. Teressa said that while she got her bath and shots she barely made a peep. The nurses said she was the mellowest baby there. In the room she was also great. She had to have her blood checked every 4 hours and each time she never cried. When we brought her home she had a rough first night. We did not get home til 6 pm that night and she was only slept in 30 minute intervals. Finally at 3 am she fell asleep for 3 hrs. Now the rest of the nights she has done great. She sleeps for 4 hrs, eats, I change her (or Mama does), and then she goes back to sleep. During the day is much like the night right now but she stays awake longer before she goes back to sleep.

The only hurdle we seem to be having is latching issues. She just does not want to. No matter how much I try she just doesn't latch. She'll suck for a second then stop. We try and try and all that ends up is her being very frustrated. So I try and if she doesn't drink then we give her some pumped milk and then I pump. Its going ok. So far we have not had to give her formula because I am pumping enough. I just worry if she never latches I will not produce enough to keep up with her.

We go to the doctors tomorrow for her first visit. It will be interesting to see how much she has gained or lost. And of course here are some pics.

R meeting Aydan for the first time

Big Yawn

Look at those Big Eyes

Birth Story

2009-09-25T09:29:00.007-05:00

As all of you know when I went in I was already 4 cm and 75 %. Saturday 9-19 I started having some bad cramping that was not going away. Since the OB told me to come in if they did not stop, that's what we did. When we got to the hospital they hooked me up to the machines and I was having contractions every 2 to 3 mins but I was not feeling them. They watched me for 1/2 an hour and then checked me. I was now 5 cm and 75 %. I was hooked up to an IV in case I needed insulin throughout labor and that's when everything stopped. I stopped having contractions and every time they checked me I was still the same. I was not going to have this little one today after all. We were upset because this meant I was going to have to be induced after all on Monday. And I just really wanted to things to start on their own which they were doing until the IV. We know without a doubt that if I had not been given the fluids things would have progressed more. But I was sent upstairs since it was already 9 am on Sunday and I was scheduled for the morning anyways. Also if things started back up then I was right there. I knew nothing was going to go on because I was still hooked up to the fluids.

Monday morning I was sent downstairs at 9 am and started the pitocin drip. They started the drip of slowly and hooked me up to the monitors. After 30 mins of having the drip I started having regular contractions that were 4 to 5 mins apart. I was not feeling them and I was able to walk around for awhile. They checked me several times and each time I had not changed at all. my contractions had not gotten closer either so they upped the pitocin. At this point the contractions did get closer at every 2 mins but I was still not feeling any of them.

At 12:30 they checked me and I was still 5 cm and 75% and she was still up high. They asked me if they could break my waters to help things along. I talked to Teressa and we decided to go ahead and do that. So they broke my water and also upped the pitocin a little. This is when things got bad. Within 20 mins of them breaking my water I started having bad contractions. I had a real hard time breathing through them and I could barely stand. I wanted to use the labor tub but it was unavailable and by the time the labor ball was brought in for me to use I couldn't get on it. I was having contractions every minute without a break in between.They were just one on top the other. I don't remember much of what Teressa did the next 2 hours but I know she did all that she could to help me. I couldn't lay down and I couldn't walk. I spent those 2 hours squatted besides the bed. Teressa rubbed my back and tried to help me focus and it didn't get better but I was doing it. Pain and all. That's when they came and checked me. After 2 hours of this I had not changed one bit. I was mentally and physically exhausted at this point. I decided to go ahead and get an epidural.

This was not an easy thing for me at all. I felt as though I had given up in a way. That I was wimping out. I cried after I told them I wanted one. I cried because I felt like a failure. I mean woman have labored like that for hours and hours and here I was backing out after 2. Teressa tried to reassure me that I was not a wimp or a failure but at that moment I was just to upset. Teressa had always told me it was my decision and she would back me on whatever I choose. The anesthesiologist came in and I did not change my mind. I went ahead and got it. The main reason I went ahead and got it is because I was afraid of when the time came to push, going the way I had been going, I was not going to have the energy to do it. I got the epi at 3:30 and within 5 mins I was pain free.

I took an hour nap and talked to my mother on the phone. I really wished she could have been here. At 5:15 I was checked again and I was now 10 cm and 100 % she was just still up high. They told me in about an hour I should be good to push unless I started to get the urge to push. At 6:15 the came and checked me and all signs pointed to YES. I started to push at 6:20 and after 25 mins she was crowning. The nurse told me to stop pushing she was getting the doctor but there was no stopping her from coming. I was not even pushing and she was coming out. The doctor came through the door in just enough time to catch her. She did not even have time to suit up. Aydan was born at exactly 6:50 pm after 30 mins of pushing. Teressa got to cut the cord and I have never seen her be more proud then right at that moment.

She was then sent upstairs for a bath. Because of my blood thing it had to be done first thing. I did get to hold her for a min before she went up though. Teressa also went up with her to be with her during her first bath and all the things they had to do. I spent the next 2 hours being stitched up. Because she came so fast, I was unable to stretch like i should have. I received a bad tear inside and a 3rd degree tear outside. I had 3 doctors working on me. I just kept watching the clock and wanting to be with my baby. Finally at almost 9 pm they finished up. I went upstairs and finally got to be with her. She was all wrapped up and just sleeping away. They asked if I wanted her to stay or to go to the nursery for the night. There was no way she was leaving me! lol. We kept her with us the entire time. The only time she went back to the nursery was to redo her hearing test. She had not passed the first time in her left ear but passed the second time. Her sugars were good the entire time and did not need to be put on an iv or be given anything.

I'm going to end here but rest assured I will post more updates on just about everything lol. I will leave you with some pics because how can I not. I can't take enough of them.

Me on Saturday

Right after delivery

Being Weighed

Today's Pic

Aydan Marie Is Here!!

2009-09-24T15:21:00.003-05:00

We got home yesterday evening from the hospital. I will post her birth story later for now I'll just say it did not go as planned but in the end I have a beautiful little girl! She was born on September 21st 2009 at 6:50 pm. Weighing in at 6 lbs 7 ozs with a head full of black hair. I'm going to leave with a pic of our little angel for now but there will defiantly be more to come.

Heading Into Labor and Delivery

2009-09-19T17:21:00.002-05:00

I'm heading to L&D. I've been cramping on and off since yesterday but this afternoon they have gotten alot worse. The ob told me on Thursday if they got like I had them on Tuesday then to come in. So here we go. I won't have a computer there so If I go missing for a while you know what happened. I will update as soon as we get back home.

I Am So Frusterated

2009-09-17T16:07:00.002-05:00

I went to the doctor today and I am so upset to what happened. They checked to see if I was any farther and I am now 4 cm dilated and 75% effaced. They almost kept me in and then decided not to. The reason I am so upset is because for the last 3 days I have been having really bad cramping. No contractions but cramping. Obviously the cramping is doing something because I was still 2.5 cm and 50%. And when they put me on the monitor after my appt I had 2 contractions that I didn't even feel. I am 2 1/2 hrs away from the hospital, I cannot just hop over there if my contractions start coming every 5 to 10 mins apart. Which is when they want me to come in. When I get to that point I don't want to be driving that far, especially if it happens during rush hour traffic. So Teressa and I have talked and If I start to feel cramps like I had yesterday I'm going in and not letting them release me. I think it's just to risky at this point.

5 Days to Go

2009-09-16T19:24:00.002-05:00

I have 5 days left until I go to the hospital to be induced! So close now. This last week and a half has been going so slow its not even funny. lol. We go to the doctor tomorrow for my last appointment and my last NST. I have been very crampy the last 2 days and I can tell that she has dropped alot as well. Maybe, just maybe, she might come on her own before Monday. Though I have not been having any contractions as far as I can tell.

1 Week To Go!

2009-09-14T20:01:00.002-05:00

This time next week I will be in the hospital and be laboring to have this little peanut! We just cannot wait. I had my NST today and Aydan just did not want to move around. On the NST's they need at least 3 to 4 heart accelerations with movement. After 20 minutes she still had not moved at all so the tech had to jostle my stomach. Let me tell you, she did not like that at all! She went crazy after that and would not stop moving till they took her off the machine 10 minutes later. It was really kinda funny. I was able to find out information at my last doctors appointment that made me happy. I will be able to use the laboring ball and tub to help with pain relief. I did not know if I would be able to with me having hep. B. (lovely present from my druggie birth mother) But I was told that I could use it as long as it is available. (they only have 1) I am really hoping to be able to labor with no pain meds and with as little medical intervention as poss. I will have to have an IV due to the GD. I will have to have insulin throughout labor and I am going to be induced as well. This should be all the interventions I will have to have.

9 More Days

2009-09-12T07:39:00.002-05:00

If I do not go into labor on my own I am scheduled to be induced on Sept. 21st. That's only 9 days away!! I will be exactly 39 weeks and the only reason I will be induced is because of the GD. The little peanut is not to big but they worry about the placenta waring out. We are so hoping that I go into labor on my own.

37 Weeks and Maternity Pics

2009-09-08T21:21:00.007-05:00

We have made it full term now!! How exciting! But can I now say..... Aydan oh Aydan you are free to come out now! lol. It's not that I am done being pregnant because I love being pregnant. But I am so ready for her to come and to be a mommy. I knew when I went into pre-term labor and they stopped it she was not going to come when I got off bed rest. And here it is 2 and a half weeks later and she is still snug inside. I have noticed that she has dropped down some. I feel so much pressure down there its not even funny. I feel as though I am walking around with a bowling ball between my legs.

Alot has been going on here since my last post. Which is the reason for the absence. Teressa and I currently live in a 3 bedroom house with Teressa's parents. They are both disabled and Teressa takes care of them while I am at work. Now they can get around and do things but both are unable to drive and cannot do alot of things around the house. So that's were we come in. We do all the shopping and taking care of the house work for them. But Teressa's brother and sister-in-law recently fell on hard times. Her brother lost his job and was unable to get another one. They lost their home they were living in and moved back here. (They lived out of state.) They and their 2 kids moved in here. It's been a little crazy getting things situated what with 4 more people in the house but we are doing ok and it hasn't been too bad. As of right now brother and wife and 1 child are living in the camper outside and the other child is sleeping in the baby's room.

I also had a maternity shoot this last week. I only have a few of the pics as of right now but when I get the rest I will post those. I think they came out ok considering I hate having my picture taken and I think I am way to big. And I am not talking about my pregnant belly I mean myself before that. But here they and they do include my face. So i am unveiling more of myself here on my blog.

35 Weeks And 3 Days

2009-08-27T09:55:00.002-05:00

We are so close to the 36 week mark! We went to the doctor yesterday and everything is still the same. That makes us very happy! I am no longer on bed rest and as of Monday I can go back to work. I cannot lift and I need to be able to sit down frequently but as I work at a day care that will not be difficult. I will only be on call. When they need me, they will call me. Other then that I will not be working. Even if I only work a little bit a week that will be good. Financially we did not plan on me being out of work for 3 1/2 months. Only the 6 weeks. Oh at our doctor visit we found out I cannot donate my cord blood. That was a disappointment. Because of a blood thing I have it makes me ineligible. I will be starting my 2 week visits next week and I will also get to see the little peanut on Monday to see how much bigger she has gotten in the last 4 weeks.

34 Weeks

2009-08-17T19:21:00.008-05:00

We have now made it to 34 weeks! It just seems like every day is such an achievement. We go to the doctor on Wednesday and here is to hoping that nothing has changed. The laptop doesn't have much battery so I'm going to end this post with pictures of what I have been up to this last week. I have crochet a sweater and 3 dresses as well as a little hat and only 1 booty so far. I will make a matching hat and booties for the other 2 dresses.

Sweater

Pink Dress

Purple and Multicolored Dress

Blue and Green Dress

Blue and Green Hat and Booty

33 Weeks and 3 Days

2009-08-13T13:57:00.002-05:00

Im 33 weeks and 3 days now. Our next goal is only 2 weeks and 4 days. If our little peanut stays put til then, then I will be allowed to walk around. No going back to work but I don't have to stay in bed. We went to my doctors appointment yesterday and nothing has changed. I'm still 2.75 dilated and 50% thinned and she is still high up. I will be checked again next Wednesday. Peanut is growing good measuring on target. I on the other hand lost 5 lbs in a week. I don't know how that happened because all I do is eat. My gestational diabetes is doing so-so. I was put on insulin just at night but yesterday it was upped and I now take it before lunch in addition to before dinner. Not doing to bad on bed rest. I crocheted a little sweater and it turned out really cute. I will def. take a pic and post it later.

Pre-Term Labor and Bed Rest

2009-08-11T02:03:00.002-05:00

So much has happened since I had my shower at work and I have not been able to tell yall. The weekend after my shower at work I had my shower with family and friends and it was just wonderful! We received lots of great things and cute little clothes. Unfortunately I have no pictures to show you of everything because of what happened next. I went in on Wednesday for my doctor's appointment and right before that I started bleeding very red blood. They sent me straight to Labor and Delivery and hooked me up to the machines. Turns out I'm having small but frequent contractions. They check my cervix and I am dilated to 1. I am monitored for a while longer and am still contracting. I don't feel them but I see them on the monitor. They checked me again and I am now dilated to 2.75. They then hurry up and put me on meds to stop the contractions and also start giving me steroid shots to help her lungs out just in case. After about 3 hours on the medication to stop them, the contractions finally stop. They checked my cervix often but no change has happened since. I spent the next 5 days in the hospital being checked and monitored. On Friday they stopped the medication and watched me for a whole 24 hours to make sure they did not start up again. They didn't. I was able to come home on bed rest on Sunday. So home in bed is where I will be til I am 36 weeks, at which point I will be given alittle more freedom. I am 2.75 centimeters dilated and 50% thinned out. We just want this little one to stay put a little longer.

Surprise Baby Shower

2009-07-25T13:42:00.008-05:00

So yesterday I had a Surprise baby shower at work. I knew that they were going to throw me one because they throw everyone at work one (I work at an all female staff). I was really surprised though because I wasn't expecting it so soon. I thought it would be an about 3 to 4 weeks. There was a ton of yummy food (alot of which I couldn't eat) but I did eat small amounts and ate at my times I was supposed to eat at. And I was under where I am supposed to be sugar wise! So I did not eat bad. I received alot of cute stuff. The list included

Several bottles of lotion, shampoo, and body wash

a couple of bottle brushes

several blankets (receiving and regular)

alot of onesies and outfits
bath tub

swaddler

several bath towels

mitten

sleepers
outlet covers
headbands
shoes
pacifiers
bibs
a bouncer
a couple of books
and a gift card

There was alot of PINK stuff! lol. There was alot of stuff and I loved it all. It was alot of fun even though I hate to be the center of attention. But I guess I better get used to it.

I never said how my doctors went. I was given my diet and I have 1 week to get my sugar under control. If not then i will have to go on insulin. Other then that everything is doing great. Little Aydan is on target size wise right now so that is great and my weight gain is no bad. Though a little more then I would like. lol. But good for the doctors. I will leave you with a couple of pics of the stuff I received.

(The spacing is really wonky but I can't seem to fix it)

Update On New OB

2009-07-17T19:35:00.003-05:00

So it's not really a new Ob. I'm going to the hospital. I will be going there every week for the next 6 weeks and then twice a week for the last 4 weeks or until I have little Aydan. I will see a different doctor at every visit and I will not know the doctor that will deliver me. We are not liking this very much. But whatever we have to do for the little one we will do. I will probably go on insulin but I will know for sure on Wednesday. When I go every week it will be for at least 3 hrs. I will see a doctor, a nutritionist and a diabetic doctor every week and I also will have a non stress test for an hr every time. I will have an ultrasound in 2 weeks and again at week 36. They will see if she is getting too big and if she is schedule me to either have a c-section or be induced. That's all I know until Wednesday. Tomorrow I will post pics from our vacation.

New Everything

2009-07-15T19:25:00.002-05:00

I know I said I was going to post pictures but I will get to them promise! Alot has been going on over here this week. The nutritionist I thought I was going to see wasn't. Its a high risk doctor. I went to my doctor today and the receptionist asked me if I had had my consult yet because they were handling me over to them. I told her no I haven't been able to get anyone on the phone. She tells me they will have an appt. for me before I leave. Yes the people I have been trying to get ahold of for over a week still have not gotten back to me. Well yes they did, once, to tell me I couldn't make an appt till I talked to the financial people first. I still haven't heard back from her and Ive left about 10 messages. Even a couple on her emergency phone. Nothing. But I did get an appt today. My doctor had to do it but I have it. My doctor I was seeing does not do high risk. And the only doctor that does that my insurance will pay for is over an hr away. I will no longer be delivering at the hospital I thought I was going to be 25 mins away from home. But a hospital I have never seen an hr away. I don't like this. I don't do change very well and this is a change for everything. I will know a lot more on Friday evening and def will tell yall everything then. Wish me luck, I think I need some.

GD

2009-07-11T16:59:00.002-05:00

Well just a really quick update because we just got back into town. We had a wonderful time on our trip bit its really great to be back home. I'm exhausted. My 3 hr test came back high so I do have GD. It really bums me out but there isn't much I can do about it. I got to the doctor on Wednesday and Ill have a lot of questions for him. Ill post more about our vacation later and pics too of course but for now I'm going to go lay down for a much deserved break.

3 Hr Test

2009-07-02T19:28:00.002-05:00

So I had my 3 Hr test and I wont know how I did until Monday. Lets just say I don't think I did too well. Before we left for the hospital I took my blood and after fasting for 12 hrs my sugar was at 131. And that was not with the glucose drink in me yet. But I still have my fingers crossed and on Monday I will find out for sure. I really wanted to find out before we left on vacation but it was not meant to be. We will be heading out first thing in the morning and will not be back until Sunday the 12th. Hope everyone has a happy Forth of July. I will post when we get back and I will have lots of photos to share as well.

Failed

2009-07-01T17:07:00.002-05:00

So I got a call from the doctors today saying I failed my 1 hr test. The result should not be over 135 and I was at 199. So tomorrow morning I will be at the hospital at 6:15 am for 3 hrs. At this point I'm not quite sure what to think about all this. I don't know how tomorrow will go but I should know before I leave the hospital how I did. I will let you all know when I know. Wish me luck.

Belly Pics

2009-06-29T13:59:00.005-05:00

Here as promised is my latest belly pic. I have been really terrible and have not taken a pic in 7 Weeks! The first one is at 4 weeks, the second is at 13 and the the last is at 27 weeks. I Think I have gotten alot BIGGER. lol.

27 Weeks

2009-06-29T08:04:00.002-05:00

We are 27 weeks today! I honestly can't believe we have made it this far. Tomorrow I go for my 1 hr glucose test so hopefully all goes well with that. Teressa, R, myself and Teressa's niece are going on a little trip Friday. We will be driving to St. Louis and to Branson for a much needed vacation before baby. It will be our last trip until April or May next year. The only bad thing is because I'm saving the little time I have for maternity leave I will not be getting paid for the week. It will be a little tight but it will be ok. I'm off to work right now but when I get back I will post my belly pic.

Less Then 100

2009-06-22T07:03:00.002-05:00

We are 26 Weeks today. We now have less then 100 Days till we meet our little peanut. I cannot wait! She is moving so much more everyday and I love to lay in bed in the morning and just feel her. I really need to post some belly pics though I have been a little lax on taking them. The weeks just keep flying by. Teressa and I went camping this weekend and we had a lot of fun. Though I don't think we will be doing it again this summer. I am not so far along but let me tell you after sleeping on the ground in a tent I am hurting today. We went after I got off work on Friday and its a good thing I got off early because if we had not shown up till 6 when I was supposed to get off we would not have been setting up. It totally down poured from 6 till 9. Luckily Teressa's brother was staying in the next campsite with a camper and we hung out in there till it stopped. When we went to the tent everything had a light mist on it but was relatively dry. Saturday and Sunday were beautiful and we had a great 2 days. I hope everyone had a great weekend and a nice Father's Day.

Sick

2009-06-14T17:09:00.003-05:00

My poor baby is sick. Teressa was up all last night throwing up. And has not been able to keep anything down today. So I have spent all day taking care of her. Baby is doing great, moving around all the time. We did have a little scare yesterday when I had not felt her all day long. So at around 2:30 when we got home we checked the Heartbeat and it was nice and strong. About 5 mins after we found the heartbeat she started kicking. Little stinker. lol. I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Nursery Pics and Other Unveilings (lots of pics)

2009-06-07T19:50:00.021-05:00

Ok I know I disappeared for a while again and I'm sorry. We have had a very eventful 2 weeks. First off, I am unveiling our names. I battled with this for a while but have decided to go ahead. I am Megan and my lovely Partner is Teressa. The only name I will not tell is R's because I don't have that right. There, Its good to be out. This last week I spent 5 hours in L&D. I have been cramping for about 5 weeks now. No spotting just cramps. Well about a week ago they started to get alot worse. I had my doctors appointment and told him what was going on and he sent me upstairs. They hooked me up to the machines and also took an ultrasound. Everything looked great. Baby was doing great moving all around and I was not having any type of contractions. I am still cramping but as long as everything is fine I can deal with it.

Another exciting news is Teressa can now feel the baby move. I can still only feel her move when I am laying down and sitting. Teressa was so happy yesterday when she felt her for the first time and just had a huge grin from ear to ear. I also can see her move too. That is a sight, just to be looking at my tummy and see it move! I just get a smile every time I feel her move its just so amazing.

We have also finished our nursery. The only thing we really need is baskets for the tables and I have to sew a curtain for the window and a cover for the night stand. I am also sewing a small curtain to cover the hanging cloths. I know it is still really early but Teressa has alot of physical difficulties and I wanted to be able to help her while I could. Without farther ado here are the pics.

Before Pics

Painted w/stripes Without Furniture

Painted w/ Furniture

22 Weeks In, 18 More To Go

2009-05-23T19:39:00.002-05:00

To see that up there is a little bit scary. 18 more weeks. 18. I know technically I have a couple more days till 22 but that's ok. lol. We have made great strides in the nursery. The room is completely cleared out and the carpet has been steam cleaned. We have the paint ready to go and that will start tomorrow. I'm so excited I cannot wait to get the room done. When we are all done I will post before and after pics.

So the maybe movement I was feeling. Definitely baby. I only feel her when I'm laying down in the morning or evening. They feel like little nudges or twinges. It has got to be the weirdest feeling in the best way possible. While TP and I were listening to her heartbeat tonight, we heard her kick or punch. As soon as I felt her inside you heard a bump on the doppler. It was so cool and TP was just grinning away.

I have definitely started to see a difference in my stomach. When I download my pics Ill post my most recent ones. TP and everyone else has noticed a difference for a while now but not me. But I looked at myself in a mirror the other day and I had to take a double take. I can't wait till I get even bigger. lol.

Maybe Movement?

2009-05-18T12:33:00.002-05:00

So far i have not felt any movement from my little peanut. But this morning laying in bed before I got up for work, I swear I felt a little something. Just like a little flutter or nudge. I don't know if it was peanut or not because I have not felt anything else since. Time will tell.

Also I think its time we got some names on here. I'm still not going to put our real names up but maybe some nicknames for all of us, Me TP and R. I just cant come up with anything. If any of yall have any suggestions let me hear them. I was just thinking of using middle names but not sure. Thanks In Advance.

I'm Back!

2009-05-17T19:05:00.004-05:00

Ok I am back! My computer was all out of sorts for almost 2 weeks. I can't believe it. I have missed so much and have playing alot of catch-up. A lot has gone on over here at our place. Since we found out it's a girl we have since bought lots of stuff! lol. We went a little crazy in buying some cloths. We found some great deals on 0-3 and 3-6 month outfits on clearance at a lot of places and we just could not pass it buy. They are are things that will be good for her in the chilly times that will be Oct-March. We were given a crib, 2 changing tables (1 will be used as a shelving unit), a great baby monitor, a pump that was never used (and for free at that, I really want to breastfeed), oh and a dresser and a bassinet. We also got a great deal on a car seat and jogging stroller. We have registered and we have booked a pre-baby vacation for the 4th of July. We have picked our theme for the nursery and have picked out the paint for the walls. We are hoping to start painting in the next couple of weeks. Well TP will be painting while I just stay out of the way of the fumes.

We also had an elective ultrasound done this weekend that we got to take R to. And it was just great. We got confirmation that it is indeed a girl and we also got a look at her in 3d. It was just amazing. We will be going back in the middle of July to have a really good 3d/4d ultrasound done and we will be 31 weeks then. I'll post some pics at the end. I was afraid R was not going to be happy when we found out it was a girl because he wanted a boy so bad. But so far he has taken it great. He loved seeing the ultrasound and watching peanut move around. After the ultrasound we took him to the zoo and just had a blast. When we got home we were so tired and he just went straight to bed. We went to church this morn and then dropped him back at home. Sometimes it's really hard to do that, drop him back off. I mean I know that he is not ours and I'm so grateful that we get to see and spend so much time with him, but I feel as though we have joint custody of him. We have been taking him since he was 2 and anything we do we do with him. It's just hard sometimes.

As promised, if you have gone this far, is some pics of our little Peanut.

It's a GIRL!

2009-05-05T20:43:00.002-05:00

The tech is pretty sure it's a girl. We could not get a great shot between the legs but we did see enough to determine there was nothing between there. We are both a little surprised but we are very excited. Its heartbeat was 141 and measuring at 19w3d.Here are the two pics they gave me.

19 Weeks

2009-05-04T20:38:00.002-05:00

Ok I am getting terrible at blogging here. But in my defense it has been a terrible week/end. Thursday I started having really bad cramping and sharp pains in my lower abdomen. TP and I head to the er because it is 10 pm. We get to the er and because there are a million people there worried they have the bi.rd fl.u we wait for 45 mins before they take us back. When we do get in out room it is another 2 hrs before our nurse comes in and gives my an iv. Now I am not one for needles but but she def did not put it in good. The whole time shes putting it in I'm going ow ow ow and she just keeps going. I tell her it really hurts and she tells me its fine. She leaves and every time I move my arm it hurts.My doctor finally gets in about 1 hr later and I tell her what I'm feeling and she feels around my stomach and then says shes not quite sure why I'm hurting. She then runs a portable ultrasound on me and says see the baby is fine. She then sends me home.

Well Sunday morning the cramping gets a lot worse and back to the er we go. This time was alot better. We listened to peanut's heartbeat and they sent me for an ultrasound. A real one this time. Turns out I have a pretty big fibroid on my uterus. We feel alot better now but we will be asking the doctor some questions tomorrow when we see him. We also have our official 20 week ultrasound tomorrow night and hopefully we will find out what peanut is. I am now off to more laying in bed because the cramping doesn't hurt so bad then.

18 Weeks

2009-04-27T17:40:00.002-05:00

I can't believe it. I am 18 weeks. Almost halfway there. At some points it seems like it took forever to get here and other times, it feels like it zoomed by. My appointment went great. Peanut is doing very good. Nice strong heartbeat though I am not feeling any movement yet. My big gender scan will be next Tuesday at 630 pm. We can't wait. I am going to hold off and tell my mom on mother's day. I think she'll like that. It will also be the day before her birthday too. I got to cut this a little short today because I am studying for my CDA to be a preschool teacher and I have 8 more books to go and only 3 more months to do them in.

Dr.s Appointment Tomorrow

2009-04-21T18:38:00.002-05:00

I am at 16 weeks 4 days if you go by the last ultrasound I had but I believe right now the doctor is going by my LMP which puts me at 17 weeks and 1 day. I think I'll go by that one lol but I'm not changing my ticker. I have my next prenatal appointment tomorrow at 3. It's just a routine visit. I should get my slip to make my 20 week ultrasound. I can make it anytime between 18-20 weeks. I don't think TP and I will be able to make it to 20 and will probably get it done middle of next week. We both cannot wait to find out what little peanut is.

Love

2009-04-14T20:26:00.003-05:00

Can I just tell you how much TP and I love this little one. Absolutely and totally love him/her. I find it amazing how something so tiny and not even here can make us love it so much. I rub my belly constantly even though I don't have a big baby belly yet just to feel closer to them. The minute I get home TP kisses my belly and talks to it. I mean its just constant love outpouring. And sometimes it make me feel guilty. Guilty that I am giving it this much love. That I am not thinking of Shain every waking moment. Because before we got pregnant this time that's what I did. He was always on my mind, always right there. And I'm not saying that I don't think about him because I do. Everyday. Just not every single moment. I am feeling more guilty right now then I have in the last 16 weeks. I think because this is when I lost him. Peanut is as big as he was when he was born. Everything that I am going to experience now is going to be new. Something I didn't get to experience with him. And I can't wait. I can't wait to see my tummy get bigger and to feel the kicks and punches. And yet still there it is, the guilt, and I can't seem to shake it. Sometimes I wish I could talk to someone. I talk to TP but shes a little to close to the subject. A little too raw you know what I mean. I need someone a little farther away from it. But I don't and unless I come up with magical funds to pay for something like that I don't see that happening. But I have you and you will listen and let me rant and pour my heart out so thank you. I know this started as an outpouring of love but then the other stuff came up and I had to get it of my chest.

Happy Easter

2009-04-12T08:50:00.007-05:00

Happy Easter to all those who do Easter. TP pampered me all weekend so I could take it easy. I go back to the doctor in a week and a half. So far it looks as though the spotting has stopped but I'm still not going to go to crazy at work tomorrow. I'm going to leave some pics of R last year hunting eggs and in his suit. We hunted eggs inside because there was too much snow on the ground last year. Also I'm putting up a pic of the last ultrasound we had. I made a scrape page. Tell me what you think of it.

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Spotting Updated

2009-04-10T10:39:00.003-05:00

This morning I was greeted by some nice red spotting. SO I am going to the doctor, my appointment is in 1 hr. I am so flippin nervous. I'm at 15 weeks gosh darn it this shouldn't be happening now. I think the main reason I am so nervous/scared is that I am at my point last time. This is when it happened. I will update as soon as we get home.

~~~~~~Update~~~~~~

We are back. Everything looks great. Peanut looks great and was just a wriggling away. We went to the doctor and heard the heartbeat but the doctor wanted to make sure are minds were at ease and sent us for an ultrasound. The great thing about the doctor I'm going to is that they are right there in the hospital. So all I had to do was just go down the hall. I was taken right back and we were in there for a whole hour. They were just looking at everything. They said that my placenta was really close to my cervix and that's why I was spotting. Also my uterus was contracted. You can see it in the picture I'm going to post. The baby was head down but in the pic it looks like its on its tummy facing down. below the baby you will see a gray bump, that's my uterus contracted. They said it's nothing and that its not like a contraction and that it happens all the time. It just tightened. No peak to see if we know what it is yet, that will be in another month.

Random Info

2009-04-04T19:38:00.002-05:00

So I realized I told everyone I was going to a new doctor but didn't really go into detail. My new doctor is in a practice by himself but does have a nurse practitioner. Most visits till closer to the end I will see her. On my first visit though I did see him and I liked him a lot. I have not met her yet but was told by my friend that she is very good. My friend referred him to me. TP and I like the fact that these are the only people we will see and that he is going to be delivering the baby. I'm sorry but if I'm going to have someone up there like that in my neither regions, I want to kinda know and like that person lol. I'm alittle on the private side and hate having my annuals and stuff like that.

On other news. Until today i have had no real symptoms yet. Tired yes but not as bad as last time. No nausea, no sore boobs. I have had to go to the bathroom alot but I think that could be attributed to the fact of me drinking 5 gallons a water a day. And that's just a little on the tall tale side. But today I feel as though a ton of bricks are on my chest. They hurt and they feel so heavy. I swear they have grown a size since yesterday lol. TP says she sees a big difference but shes been saying that for weeks now. I'm just now noticing it. And it makes me a little scared. I am already a 38 D sometimes a DD depending on the bra. Now for my 4'11" frame that is not on the small side. It makes me wonder how big am I going to get to. And don't even get me started on after the birth when they say you get even bigger. I can't even thank about it lol.

TP and I had started saving money for all the stuff we are going to need. I will not have much time to cover me on leave and so on top of everything I will need to have enough to do that. Well we just go offered a crib with a matching changing table and dresser. I was also given another changing table that is just one of those rack like ones that we are going to use to hold baskets of either toys or cloths. The only thing left that I really want is a rocker. And not a glider but one of those old simple rockers.

I do have a question for any one that has used them. We are thinking of using g*ipers. We were wondering how well they have worked for people. If you have used then let us know how they are.

We are starting to get so excited now that we are getting father and farther with no bleeding and cramping. Sometimes I just can't wrap my head around it. It still feels like a dream. A wonderful happy dream.

14 Weeks and A Belly Pic

2009-04-03T19:04:00.004-05:00

Well we are 14 weeks today. Its amazing. At some points it feels so slow and at others its like zooming by. Not much news worthy stuff going on right now. Except that I have been sick for the last week and I finally went to the doctors. I ended up having a really bad sinus infection so now I have pregnancy safe meds to take and hopefully it will go away. I see the doctor in 2 1/2 weeks and then I will schedule my big ultrasound! Hoping to feel movement by or close to the time after I see the doctor. I am putting up some pic of my belly. The 1st one is at 4 weeks when I first found out and the 2nd is a week ago at 13 weeks. Excuse the fatness that is me but I defiantly think I'm starting to get a little bit of bump considering Ive only gained 2 pounds since the beginning.

Memorial Edited

2009-03-30T13:54:00.007-05:00

I was due today. I know that doesn't mean that he would have came this weekend but this is the date we are going to use. Lets just say its been a really sucky weekend. We did get out and just spent time together and talked alot. We are both very emotional but we are not doing too bad I think. We went to a nice area today and had a little memorial for him. We wrote letters to him and burned them and we released a couple of balloons that had some messages written on them. I took some pictures which I will put at the end here. We miss him so much and we have so many conflicting emotions. We wish that everything didn't happen and that he was still here with us but on the other hand if it would not have happened we would not have peanut right now. Like I said just a lot of emotions going on. I am also including another digital scrap page but be forewarned it does have a picture of Shain when he was born.

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*I can's get the memorial pics to upload I will try again Later*
*but here is the scrapbook page*

Finally It let me upload the pictures. Here they are.

The Burning Ceremony

Releasing the Balloons

12 Weeks

2009-03-21T07:34:00.002-05:00

I have been seriously delinquent and I feel really bad. It has been over 2 weeks since I have posted. Everyone is doing great. In fact I am feeling so much better then I was. I have no more dizziness therefor I have no headaches. I haven't felt any pain from my cyst in over a week now. I'm starting to have a little bit more energy though if I keep not sleeping I'll have less lol. I am a tummy sleeper and it is starting to hurt. Every time I roll in my sleep I wake up because its painful. TP says I should buy a body pillow. We have now told everyone and they are all excited. I think my mom already had figured it out when I told her just by her reaction. Its really hard for her though because she really wants to be here when the baby is born, but my family lives way down in Texas and here we are in Illinois. My mother doesn't fly unless someone came with her and she doesn't drive. So I don't see her getting up here. We heard the heartbeat again last Saturday and it was at 161 so still really nice and strong. I am going to my new doctor on Monday because the one I was seeing only sees you till you are 12 weeks. We are so excited to be past the first trimester. Now we just have to get past week 16. Everything has been going so well but we are still so nervous. This month has been a little hard on both of us because this would have been the month that our little Shain would have been here. Next weekend I will have 3 days off and we are going to do something special to honor him. Not quite sure yet but we have some ideas. I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Update Post

2009-03-07T08:24:00.004-06:00

Ok Here was my crazy week last week. I woke up on Monday and I was extremely dizzy, so dizzy I could barely make it to the bathroom. But by the time I started getting ready for work it had gone down a little so I went to work. By the time I got to work I was very dizzy again. I didn't even clock in, my boss sent me home. I was like this all week. It never got worse but it didn't get any better. Finally on Thursday i said screw it and I went to the doctor. All she told me was that it was normal. So I'm still a little dizzy but I can handle it. At least its not as bad as it was. Some great news though. When we went to the doctors we got to hear the heartbeat! So exciting!! I think that I could listen to that sound all day long every day. Ok below are some digital scrappages I made. It's the first time I've ever made this kind of stuff and I don't think they are all that great but hey you got to start somewhere. I would love to do real scrapbooking but its just really expensive. The first one is of R at Christmas when we gave him his Jr. jacket. He loved it. He can't wait to wear it now that its not so cold anymore. The second one is peanuts utlrasound pic.

Pay It Forward

2009-03-06T21:42:00.002-06:00

Ok I have been a slacker and should have posted this last week. But better late then never. A lot of stuff going on here and I will post tomorrow on an update on me and the little peanut. I won this over at babypants and now its time for me to pay it forward. the rules are listed below so feel free to comment, first 3 will get something by me. : )

Here are the rules:
1. Be one of the first three people to leave a comment on this post, which entitles you to something handmade by me (something crafty or yummy).
2. Winners must post this challenge on their own blog, meaning that you will Pay It Forward, and send handmade goodies to three more folks, the first three who leave a comment on your blog.
3. The gift that you send your first three commenters can be from any price range, and you have 365 days to make & ship your item. (This means that you should be planning to keep your blog at least until you’ve received your gift and sent your gifts.) And remember, it’s the spirit and the thought that count!
4. When you receive your gift, feel free to blog about it, and share the Linky Love. If you’re not one of the first three commenters on this post, you can still play. Just create a Pay It Forward post on your own blog, and start your own chain. And encourage your blogging friends to play along.
Okay comment away!!

9 weeks and A Picture

2009-02-27T19:42:00.002-06:00

I had my ultrasound today and everything is looking good. The baby is measuring 9w0d so spot on. The heartbeat was a nice 169 bpm. The bleeding looks to have stopped and i am so happy for that. We saw the baby moving it's little arms around and it was so cute. I am very tired so I am going to say good night and here is a picture of the little peanut.

Taking It Easy

2009-02-22T17:41:00.003-06:00

Not much going on. I'm taking it easy. Things are changing at work. They are going to put me back in the little baby room (goes up to 6 months) working 8-5. So no more split shift for me :). And I will not be alone ever. Because there are a couple of the little ones I still cannot lift. I think I'm going to like it, especially the not closing part. It will be nice to get home at 5 everyday instead of 6. A few weeks ago I made a couple of outfits for the 2 girls at my work that had babies. Here are a couple of picts.

They are made of fleece and very easy to make. The little girls was a little big but not to big. His fit just right. I love to sew. I am with them everyday and I do really good but every now and then I look at them and think mine should be here soon. We were all pregnant at the same time but we were all 3 months apart. So it's a little sad sometimes but I think I'm doing really good with it.

I have not had any spotting, very good sign. I'm going to be having an ultrasound done on Thursday and by the grace of me I will get a pic this time. I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Date Change

2009-02-18T14:53:00.002-06:00

I had to change my week because according to my u/s I am only 7w5d today. Which according to my ovulation day would also be correct. I am going back to work tomorrow since I have had no spotting. I'll just be on light duty. That also means that I will not be in my baby rooms since often I am by myself and cannot lift the bigger ones. I will be will the 4s or 5s. Don't get me wrong I love all the kids but the babys are more of my zone. I guess I will find out everything for sure tomorrow.

Bed Rest Update

2009-02-17T17:52:00.005-06:00

Just a small update. I'm still in bed and TP is just waiting on me hand and foot. :). I have not started spotting so that is really great news. Other then that nothing much else is going on. Being in bed is driving me insane and TP too I'm sure lol. But it is all for the best little thing in the world.

8 Weeks

2009-02-16T16:20:00.002-06:00

I am at 8 weeks today and am on bed rest for the rest of today and all of tomorrow. I went to work this morning and no sooner then I get there I start cramping on my left side. I'm all in a panic because it hurts pretty bad. No spotting though so that's good. My boss tells me to go, and I pick up TP and head to the er because my doctors doesn't open til 10 and its only 7. After spending 5 hrs at the hospital they tell me that they see a cyst on my left ovary and to go see my doctor. I call the doctor and she tells me to come in right away. I get there and she takes me back. She looks over the report and says the cyst she is not worried about, what they did not tell me is that a have a very little bleeding behind the placenta on the implantation site. So she puts me on bed rest and progesterone. I also can not lift over 15 pounds at work for 1 month. So here I am going crazy on a borrowed laptop lol. Peanut is measuring very good and 7w3d and had a nice healthy heartbeat at 163 bpm. So that makes us very happy. It just seems that things like to happen at 8 weeks for us. Last time our spotting happened then. So far so good on that front. So far we have had 3 ultrasounds and no picture to take home with us hopefully on the next one in 3 weeks lol.

7th Anniversary

2009-02-11T17:33:00.003-06:00

*I wasn't worrying about my weight. I was just saying I have no pants to wear. Lol.*

So Monday was TP and mine's 7th anniversary. I can't believe it's been 7 years. I love her as much as the first day and a whole lot more. We didn't do anything really because we went out on the weekend. But we did exchange cards and had a nice dinner at home (That she cooked). It was a nice evening. We had to take Mercy in to the vet today to get fixed. Poor baby and we miss her already. She has to stay the night because the vets closed to early for us to get her. I made an appointment for my next ultrasound for Friday the 20th. I cant wait to see our little peanut and to see it's little heart beating.

7 Weeks Today

2009-02-09T20:03:00.006-06:00

So I am at 7 weeks today! Very exciting. Everything is going really good so far. No spotting and I think if I get past week 8 with none I will start to feel better. TP and I just want to get past the 13th week. I know though that until I get to week 17 I won't relax all the way. I have started to break out so bad. This is definitely a pregnancy thing because I never breakout. They are right on my hairline so they are not to noticeable. When I was pregnant with Shain I broke out but not this bad. My pants are already starting to get a little snug. I thought that it would be similar to last time when they didn't start to get snug til week 14. But I guess technically this is my second pregnancy so I was told that I would start to stretch sooner. The bad thing is I have no bigger size cloths to wear. Before I got pregnant the first time I had just lost 50 pounds. While I was pregnant, because I was spotting I wasn't allowed to do anything, I gained 18 pounds. After the loss I was so depressed that I gained 25 pounds back. So I am back into the size I was before I lost all my weight. So no bigger cloths

Doctor Visit

2009-02-07T19:05:00.002-06:00

We had our doctor visit today and everything went great. She was very pleased how the ultrasound went and says we are measuring well. We will have another one in 3 weeks so we can be able to hear the heartbeat. The weekend so far has been great. TP took me and R to Medieval Times tonight and we had a blast. TP has been before but we had not. I loved it and I could tell R loved it too. I hope everyone has a great weekend, I am now off for some much needed sleep :).

2nd Ultrasound

2009-02-04T11:03:00.003-06:00

I don't know what it is with these places but I still have no picture to show you. We did not see the baby but we did see the gestational and yolk sac. So that is an improvement from last time. No heartbeat yet still a little to early. I'm measuring a few days shy of 6w2d at 5w6d but I also ovulate a few days later too. I'm sure my doctor is going to want another one in 2 weeks, hopefully at that time I will get a picture and a heartbeat. I'm back off to work now.

Random Post

2009-02-01T17:19:00.002-06:00

First off I would like to say Happy 1st of February everyone and Happy Superbowl Sunday to all that watch that kind of thing. (I'm not a football person) Not much is going on here, just working and more working. I filed my income taxes, which all of it is going into savings for Peanut. TP and mines anniversary is coming up next week so we celebrated a little early and got a wii fit. We will be trying it out as soon as I finish this post lol. Tomorrow marks 6 weeks. No symptoms yet except for a little queasiness every now and then but nothing real bad or anything. I'm off to play some wii and then for a night of Big Love, The L Word, and United states of Tara.

No Ultrasound Pics

2009-01-26T19:07:00.002-06:00

So I went in to have my ultrasound done and the lady only does an external one. Now at 5 weeks you are not going to see anything with only an external. But that is all she does and so I have no pic to post. I saw my doctor right afterwards and asked her way no internal and she tells me that the tech did ask the doctor if she wanted her to do an internal and the doctor said no. She does not like to do internals if you have had a miscarriage before the currant pregnancy. She doesn't want to take the chance. I can see her point but it scares me that I didn't see anything, not even the yolk sac. But the doctor did say that my uterus is enlarged and that I do have a nice thick lining so I will just have to live with that for 2 more weeks. That is when I go back to have another ultrasound. Hopefully at 7 weeks we will see a little more.

Doctor's Appointment

2009-01-25T07:20:00.002-06:00

I went to the new doctors and I got to say, I love her. She was very to the point and covered all the bases. I go back and see her in 2 weeks. They have their own ultrasound machine there and I will be getting one done on Monday. She told us that she does early ultrasounds because, one if it is ectopic then they find it early enough. And two, she found the best reassurance for a mother-to-be is to show them there is something in there. I love that. She has delivered 17,000 children in her life, I find that amazing. We are both really positive about her. I am at 5 weeks tomorrow.

On a sad note. My sister that was pregnant, just lost hers. She was supposed to be 12 weeks and she started to bleed. She went to the er and had an ultrasound and it had stopped growing at 7 weeks. I feel so bad for her. And it make me think, does the universe not want us pregnant at the same time? I lost Shain in October and then in the middle of November she told me she was pregnant. Then I find out I'm pregnant and now she lost hers. I just don't understand some times.

Rescheduled

2009-01-21T17:41:00.002-06:00

*Thank's everyone. I did put down the pee sticks and just let myself enjoy this*

I was supposed to go to the doctors today but I had to reschedule due to everyone in the day care is sick with the flu. So I worked a different shift and am now going to the doctor on Saturday. Now I'm going to admit something that some might look down on but I really don't care. I have to use the state insurance. My place of work doesn't offer insurance and because of all my pre-existing conditions I can't get private unless I want to pay an arm and a leg for it. So I will be using the state. In order to reapply (I still have it for when I was pregnant with Shain) I needed a new proof of pregnancy letter. I went in on my break today to do that. The lady I had I wanted to kill by the end of my visit. She did the test and we waited the time period and this is exactly what she said "The line on there, I can barely see it. I don't know if I should write the letter or not." I almost said You idiot any line is proof of pregnancy. but I didn't. Then she realized that I was only 4 weeks and started going on about how I shouldn't even been there. That I shouldn't have been able to make an appointment till I was 6 weeks. I told her that the front desk never asked me how far I was they just made the appointment. I told her the last time I was pregnant I was only 4 weeks and the lady I had then was ok with me coming in then. The last thing she went into me was the fact that my miscarriage was only 3 months ago and didn't the doctor tell me to wait. No he did not, he told me that the infection that caused it was gone and I was good to go. Right as I'm about to reach over the desk and strangle her she writes the dang letter. So now I have my letter, my insurance and on Saturday I have my appoint (though not with any of these people). Sorry for the rant I just had to get of my chest.

As far as symptoms go, I'm not really having any. I'm starting to get very tired and that's one of the first things that hit me before. No nausea as of yet. I also got brave and put some tickers up.

Don't Know Quite What's Going On

2009-01-19T08:49:00.002-06:00

I've kept on testing waiting for the line to get darker, and its not. In fact I think it is getting lighter. There is still a very faint line but I haven't got any more digital test to see what that one would say. I hope that its going to stick around, but I have no clue as to what is happening. My temp is still high and I've got no cramping or bleeding. I'm going to wait till Wednesday to test again and I will let you know what I find.

update. Thanks guys for the reassurance. I went ahead and made an appoint for the doctor on Wednesday.

2nd Post Today

2009-01-17T12:36:00.004-06:00

I could not handle not really knowing and held my pee all morning long, behold the digital test. Sorry the picture isn't that good.

There is no Not before that Pregnant. Holy Shit, We're Pregnant!! It is still insanely early, Monday would only be 4 weeks according to LMP. I can't believe it. I am so nervous and scared and oh so Happy I don't know what to do with myself. TP is also very happy of course and very nervous. After what happened I think everyone would be to. Its a little sad because our counting week is going to be Mondays and with Shain it was also on Monday. On the 19th I will be 4 weeks where with Shain I would have been 30. I am going to be calling the doctor on Monday to set up an appointment. Oh I just cant believe it lol.

12 DPO and Question 15, 16 & 17

2009-01-17T07:47:00.004-06:00

So today is 12 dpo and I broke down and tested this morning. I'm not quite sure but I think I got a very very faint line. I will test again tomorrow to make sure. I would leave a pic but my phone didn't take a very good pic. If tomorrows is better I will upload it then. Come on belated birthday present! Now on to my last few questions by eeneymeeney.

Question 15. Who was your first girl kiss with and what were the circumstances ie: school girl crush, your current partner, drunk with a good friend?

My first kiss was with my one and only TP. She is the first and only person I have kissed. It was after our first official date. When she leaned in to kiss me I got a little nervous (fresh being out at 19 and being outside by the car) that I ducked my head and she kissed the top of it. She never lets me live this moment down to this day and we always have a chuckle over it. I have now more then enough paid up for it :).

Question 16. Do you have any phobias?

I am absolutely terrified of spiders. I can't stand them and if one happens to get on me. I shriek and jump and am halfway to the other said of a room before you even know whats happening lol.

Question 17. Any tattoos?

No, have none. I really want to get one that I designed myself, but I probably never will because I'm not a real big fan of needles. My honey has 2 though.